To say I loved this dog is a ridiculous understatement. In fact to use the word "loved," past tense, is wrong. Little Phoebe Einstein Larsen may be gone from this world in her little gorgeous physical form, but her amazing spirit definitely is still with me. I always thought that if there were motivational speakers in the doggy world, she surely could have been one because – oh, how wise she was. She taught me well and I'd like to share just a few of the lessons she gave me.
She totally knew how to ask for what she wanted. Cookies, to go for a walk, to sleep at the foot of my bed – whatever she wanted, she would let me know. She once walked up to me and carefully paced her ball on my foot as her way of saying, "I would like for you to throw the ball now". She never made me guess and she was relentless. She taught me how to be clear in my requests and not make assumptions that people SHOULD know what I need and want. I'm still not quite as good as she was.
She knew how to relax and have fun. I can get so caught up in "stuff." Stressful situations that are hurtful physically, emotionally and mentally. And invariably when things got overwhelming, Phoebe would ask me to join her in doing the things that always made her feel good. Things that, after I joined her – always made me feel infinitely better. Walking, going for a ride in the car to get ice cream or, even better, a ride in the kayak. Oh bliss. I can feel my heart rate going down as I even think about it.
She knew that her reason for being was to give love. Isn't this really what it is all about? For all of us? And oh, how I can forget this one when somebody done somebody wrong. Especially if that somebody was me. But Phoebe never played that game. Ever. She expressed her love in a hundred different ways every day. It was unabashed, unconditional and unwavering. It didn't matter if John or I were cranky or scary looking or had forgotten to change her water – she loved us anyway.
Whenever I start to feel the pain of missing her, I try to bring my attention back to how deeply grateful I am to have had her in my life and how I cherish the gifts she gave me. She will forever live in my heart as one of the greatest treasures of my life.